Intezaar..

Is raat ke andhere mein,

Jab mudkar maine dekha hai,

Door tak dekha maine

Phir bhi na tumko paaya hai

Ek ajeeb sa darr

Ek ankahi si uljhan

Aise hi bikhre khayalon ne

Mujhko har soon ghera hai

Yaadon ke gehre samandar mein

Aaj phir doobne ko mann karta hai

Tumhaare sparsh ke ehsaas ko

Aaj phir mehsoos karne ko mann karta hai

Tum door toh ho bahut mujhse

Phir bhi saath ka ehsaas toh hai

Chookar mehsoos na kiya toh kya hua

Tumhaari khusboo ka ehsaas toh hai

Is ehsaas ke sahare hi

Lamhon ko bitaye jaana hai

Nazdikiyon ki umeed mein hi

Dooriyon ko jiye jaana hai.

A message for me..

chase ur dreams fly high
soar into the sky get rainbow colors to fly
fluttering and twittering i see u,
spreading colors of love
I will never feel that i miss u
for u will always be thr in my heart
never so near .. bt never so faar

"Sigh of a Mother's Heart"

Floating through this stillness so deafening,

I feel an irrepressible twinge,

The night walks through me burly,

Not for a moment I could blink.

 

Reminiscences of the moments passed,

Make my eyes sad and teary,

Holding my hand you grew so much,

But now everything seems scary.

 

 

The time when I held you first,

I felt blessed with an angel so bright,

A thirst in me got quenched,

And everything else went out of sight.

 

 

You didn’t had words to explicate,

Still your meanings were implicit,

You couldn’t walk unaccompanied,

And my support was requisite.

 

 

We weaved dreams together,

Every step of you was planned,

If you had to seek me around,

Just beside you, I would always stand.

 

I gave you wings,

You flew in the sky,

But now its time,

That you come by.

  

My hopes have vanished,

My vision is now blurred,

I am lost and lonely,

I need to be heard.

 

 I know you have a lot to do,

You have your own world to look after,

Still I ask for you now,

As its only you I can seek hereafter.

MY new Blog-- FIRST POST "PLeADING NOT GUILTY"

This blog largely reflects the personal feelings and personal experiences I may have gone through. And, now I decided to go beyond, and write about things happening around me, things which I feel connected to or concerned about.

That's the purpose of my My new blog charu-notepad.blogspot.com.
My first post there.. PLEADING NOT GUILTY...

Pehli Hindi Kavita..:)

PS- This is my first ever attempt at Hindi Poetry Writing.. I don't know how well it has come out but I am happy as I managed this much atleast.:)

In aankhon ke khaare paani se
main khud ko bhigoya karti thi
raat ke khamosh andheron mein
main bikhre khwaab piroya karti thi

Na thi koi aarzoo dil mein
na sapne dekha karti thi
bus yun hi tanha raahon mein
main khud ko khoja karti thi

Phir jaane kahaan se yun hi
tumne aakar thaam liya
aur pal bhar mein hi is dil ne
tumko apna maan liya

Haan kal hi toh baat hai yeh
tum ajnabi the in raahon mein
aur aaj yeh aalam hai ki
bus tum ho meri chaahon mein

Tumko paaya toh dil ne jaana
ab aur koi isko chaah nahin
haath tumhara thaama maine
rahenge ab hum saath yahin

Haan mujhko lagta hai yeh
kabhi toh kuch accha kiya hoga
tabhi mere haathon ki lakeeron mein
kisi ne tumhe likh diya hoga

100 Truths about me....Tagged....

Its been after a very long time I am doing a tag.. Thanks to Artz..When i saw the title I thought it would be Tough, but luckily came down easy..:)


1. Last beverage: Tea..
2. Last phone call: Rajeev..
3. Last text message: Rajeev..
4. Last song you listened to: Amazed(Lonestar)..
5. Last time you cried: Yesterday..

HAVE YOU EVER...
6. Dated someone twice: No..
7. Been cheated on? No..
8. Kissed someone & regretted it? No..
9. Lost someone special? Yes..close friend..
10. Been depressed? Yes...a lot of times actually
11. Been drunk and threw up? Nah..But would do it at least once ;P

LIST Three FAVORITE COLORS:
12.Black
13.White
14.Blue

HAVE YOU:
15. Made new friends: Yes, keep doing that..and i love it..
16. Fallen out of love: No
17. Laughed until you cried: Yes, many times..
18. Met someone who changed you: Not really..
19. Found out who your true friends were: Yes
20. Found out someone was talking about you: No
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: No
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: Quite a lot of them..
23. How many kids do you want to have: Don't know..
24. Do you have any pets: Nah!
25. Do you want to change your name: No
26. What did you do for your last birthday: Partied with friends and missed someone a lot..
27. What time did you wake up today: 8.30 AM
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: Same Which i am doing tonight..Sitting Online..
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for : Admission in a journalism institute..
30. Last time you saw your father: Two hours back..
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: Wish I had been a little Lucky and would have got things easliy.
32. Most visited web page: Blogger.

Whats your:
33. Name: Charu
34. Nicknames: Charzz, Nattu, Naatu.
35. Zodiac sign: Lazy Libra
36. Male or female or transgendered: Female
37. Elementary: Greenway Modern School
38. School: Greenway Modern School
39. Colleges: Motilal Nehru College.
40. Hair color: Black
41. Long or short: Short
42. Height: 5’ 1"
43. Do you have a crush on someone? Crush is a Small word for what I have on someone;)
44. Ever been in love? Yes, off course and that too happily..
45. Piercings? 2
46. Tattoos? Nope
47. Righty or lefty: Righty

FIRSTS :
48. First surgery: None
49. First piercing: Ears
50. First best friend: Lubaba
51. First sport you loved: Hide and seek( if u consider it a Sport), Else cricket.
52. First pet : Never had one.
53. First vacation: Dont remember..
54. First concert: Haven't been to any..
55. First crush: My senior in School.. Selwyn..

RIGHT NOW:
56. Eating: Nothing
57. Drinking: Nothing
58. I'm about to: Sleep..
59. Listening to: the silence..
60. Waiting for: a call which I am sure is not going to come..

YOUR FUTURE :
61. Want kids? Yes
62. Want to get married? Yeah!
63. Careers in mind? Anything related to writing..

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?
64. Lips or eyes: Lips
65. Hugs or kisses: Hugs
66. Shorter or taller: Taller
67. Older or Younger: Older
68. Romantic or spontaneous: Both.
69. Nice stomach or nice arms: Stomach
70. Sensitive or loud: : Sensitive
71. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship.
72. Trouble maker or hesitant: Hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER :
73. Kissed a stranger: Never
74. Lost glasses/contacts: No
75. Sex on first date: Never
76. Broken someone's heart: Nope
77. Had your own heart broken: Yes
78. Been arrested: No
79. Turned someone down: Yes
80. Cried when someone died: Yes
81. Liked a friend that is a girl? Nah..

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
81. Yourself: Yes
82. Miracles: Yes
83. God: Yes
84. Love at first sight: No, if its at first sight, it cant be love..
85. Heaven: No, heaven-hell its all here..
86. Santa Clause: No
87. Kiss on the first date? No
88. Angels: Yes..I have in my life :)
89. Devils: No..

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
90. Is there one person you want to be with right now? Yes, BADLY.. and I am sure he must be snoring right now..
91. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? Nah,that's not my kind of a thing..
92. Wanted to kill someone ever? Yeah..
93. Among you blog mates, whom would you like to kiss? hmm...Artz...she tagged me with this
94. Committed a blunder and regretted later? Yes..
95. Wanted to steal you friend's boyfriend / girlfriend? Never..

Associate with someone you know:
96. White: Dad..
97. Black: Myself..
98. Pink: Ujala..
99. Red: Rajeev..

100. Posting this as 100 Truths? YES

Will You Marry Me.....

Wind was moving at a tranquilizing pace
I could sense its softening embrace
Looked at you from a distance far
Loved the way you sizzled under stars

You gave me a smile that ripped me apart
Our love seemed eternal under the moonlit sky
"Unveil the mystic countenance you have guy"

My heart pounded at a rapid pace
And i felt your magic from toe to face
Reverie of the moments spent together
Returned to me from the start and
Your mesmerizing touch allayed my heart

Moving on my knees i took your hand in mine
Easing my breath i said "Marry me and forever be mine"

LETS TALK

Let me hold you in my arms and
Ease the pain of your heart.
The tears from your
Sparkling wet eyes and your trembles

Touch me and hit me hard and
Agony is what that captures me, So
LETS TALK this out now my love to
Keep you away from hurt and dismay.

MY First attempt at Acrostic Poetry....:)

Sorry....

Didn’t even said you loved me,
And you hung up the phone,
I was so unlike you my love,
Guess that’s the way anger was shown.

You ran away from me,
For I said some silly things,
But baby I didn’t mean them,
They didn’t carry any meaning.

Still I know you were hurt,
And a promise is the only cure I have,
I will watch my words from next time,
This time if you could just forgive.

You own me, you have me,
I am your dazed stupid doll,
My smile belongs to you honey,
I love only you—above all.

I know I can’t undo,
Words which hit you hard,
I don’t know what else to say tonight,
I am sorry could only be the last said word.

~~Comparitive Rhtym~~

It was yesterday,

I was entrapped in certain emotions,

They kept me clutched to my past.

It is today,

I have cleansed those confusions,

As I don’t want them to last.

It was yesterday,

I had so much to face around,

I even drifted apart from myself.

It is today,

My heart doesn’t feel bound,

I am in a place where joy is fenced.

It was yesterday,

I wished I could run away,

From the life which took a toll on me.

It is today,

My soul can breathe and sway,

I relive and sense that I am free.

It was yesterday,

Oh!

I am Euphoric it was YESTERDAY.

It is today,

WoW!

I am CONTENT it is TODAY.

Chaotic Thoughts..

A dark lonely night,
There is plight,
What to do,what not,
I need an insight.

I am baffled with this quest,
My senses are numb,
Everything is hazy,
Wonder what life has become.

The more I think,
The more I am lost,
Still I am seeking,
An answer at any cost.

V-day...2...

A rain drop on my skin,
or darkening clouds o'er my head,
the wet n damp grassy inn,
reminds me of the day we met.

That queer sweetness of monsoon wind,
was what I could smell in you,
The chill, The thrill, The frill u bring,
like a crystal drop of dew.

sliding down the lips of mine,
the taste so wet so pristine,
An angle of my dreaming mind,
I wont ever wake up from this dream.

Happy Valentine's Day...

My nights were lonely,
My dreams were dark
I don’t know from where you came
You lit my heart

I was broken from inside
My senses were dead
You held my hand
And brought me back

You gave me strength
When I was the weakest
I drew towards you
I left behind the rest

You came near to me
You molded my heart
I sank into you
Now I don’t want to part

You gave me comfort
You made me smile
You didn’t let me frown
Even for a while

You are my dream
You ended my search
I got you
I got the best