"Inside Out"

How amazed I am at my own self
How I had been living my life
How I let go all my happiness just in a short while
I kept looking for bliss where it wasn’t present
And when I didn’t get it I found everything unpleasant
Wherever I went I used to spread smiles
But now my own smile seems to be lost
I am loosing which I am loved and adored for
When did I became so hard I couldn’t decipher
Its high time I get back to my real self
I have asked enough, now I don’t need help
Nothing can make you smile
When your heart isn’t willing to do so
But now I am not gonna be like this anymore
I will fight and bring back the flow
Happiness is not outside but inside of you
Search for it if it’s not coming to you
My search in on..And things look brighter
I will soon bring back the feel good factor…

FalSe Hope...

Yet again I am thinking,
Why can’t I let this go?
Why it looks so hard?
The truth- off course I know

Yeah..You aren’t mine.
And you will never be
Still I hope in my heart.
I will hear you say you want me

Yeah...I am hoping
Hoping A hopeless hope
It’s not going to happen
There’s just no scope

I don’t know why
I just want to run away
From you my love
As I know I can’t make you stay.

This heartache is deep
This pain is real
But I know it’s not your fault
I know how you feel

You can’t give me
That what I am asking for
Love just happens
And you don’t feel that for sure.

Still I wish it works out
I am still in many doubts
Oh baby! Just be here with me
It’s U, it’s I...but it could have been “We”.

SearchinG around..

Once again I m searching around
And my dear you are nowhere to be found
This silly feeling grips me tight
Whenever you are away, out of my sight
I don’t know why it’s so hard to smile
Even if you are away just for a while
I seek you, I find you, and I seek you again
And this time my search went in vain
Come to me fast or call me where you are
I want you near me—don’t stay so far
Come to me baby! I can’t wait any longer
This gloomy-sad feeling is getting stronger
I want to touch you-hear you-feel your presence
I have had enough, now can’t stand your absence
I wish you could see how I am without “YOU”
You are miles away my darling! You don’t have any clue
Just now a thought came to my mind
How lovely it would be if I find
I am here—badLY missinG YOU
And you are there—missinG me too…..